It's been a long 5 years. Five years ago much of what I valued was ripped away from me savagely. People I thought I could trust and had long experiences with made decisions that left deep wounds; for myself and for my family. God was gracious. When everything inside me screamed to quit, He said no. He fought both for me and with me. Where the Bible says, "I will never leave you or forsake you" became something especially real to me. It continues to be real these past few months. In May I received word that my heart disease had improved and my heart function had doubled. This was not supposed to happen. It had been 23% for 5 years, but all the sudden, tests came back at 46%. I was convinced of a screw up. I was dead wrong (no pun intended). God has restored what Satan tried to steal. I can say "It is well with my soul." In June I had the opportunity to go home again. God opened the door for me to speak at a camp near my previous church. As part
Blind Spots (Part 1): By Aaron Peternel Some of my recent reading has forced my thinking into a time of personal reflection. Seasons of looking inside are good things. They are part of what God uses to make us holy; to look more like Jesus. Why do we do the things that we do; specifically why do we continue in unhealthy patterns of behavior? These are patterns that we are taught are wrong, and know are wrong. Many times we fight to control the urges or tendencies and fare well for a while, yet when we are tired, hungry, lonely or or emotionally exhausted, we can often fall. Then the guilt-confession cycle begins and we hate the fact that we failed and have not yet grown beyond it. A simple reason we fall into these patterns is that we choose to say yes to self and no to God. The Scriptures make it clear that we do not have to fall to sin, "13 No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God